Hannah Brown.Photo: Lauren AlexandraHannah Browndidn’t find her happy ending on her season ofThe Bachelorettein 2019, but for a moment, it appeared she would rekindle a relationship with fan favorite and runner-upTyler Cameron.“I was really hoping that we would start dating again,” Brown, whosplit from her pick Jed Wyattbefore the finale aired, tells PEOPLE in this week’s issue. “I thought I’d made a mistake. I had feelings for Tyler. And I wanted to make things work.“But as the reality star, 27, details in her new memoirGod Bless This Mess, available Tuesday, things did not go as she had hoped.For more from Hannah Brown, pick up the latest issue of PEOPLE, on newsstands Friday, or subscribehere.Hannah and Tyler.After Brownpublicly asked Cameron outduring her season’sAfter the Final Rosespecial (sending fans into a tizzy!), the former couplespent time togetherin her Los Angeles home in early August 2019.“We had really intimate conversations about planning trips and things,” says Brown. “I wanted it to work and to know that everything had happened for a reason. But maybe there was some miscommunication of what that meant.“Tyler Cameron, Hannah Brown.Mark Bourdillon/ ABCTyler Cameron and Hannah Brown on The Bachelorette finale.Miscommunication or not, two days after their night together,photos of Cameronwith supermodelGigi Hadidemerged. “I was reallycaught off-guard,” Brown says. “I knew we were not together or openly dating, but just from the conversations we’d had, it was so shocking — and so public.“Continues Brown: “I felt like I had to be strong andpretend it didn’t bother mewhen it did. I was already on the ground [following her breakup with Wyatt] and this was another kick. I was deeply hurt. I said to Tyler, ‘I’d dateGigi Hadidtoo if I could, I get it.’ But it was not the way I wish it was handled.“In the months following, “wedidn’t talk,” says Brown. “I was upset with him.“Hannah Brown’s “God Bless This Mess”.But then, when Brown learned that Cameron’s beloved mother Andreahad been hospitalizedin February 2020, she reached out.“He told me he had been thinking about me and he apologized for how everything went down,” says Brown. “The next day my brotherhad an overdose. We bonded over each other’strauma.“Tragically, Cameron’s motherdiedat the end of February (Brown’s brothersurvived). Brownwent to visit Cameron in Floridadays before the COVID-19 lockdown began and suddenly found herself strandedwith her ex and his friends. (The groupdocumented much of their timetogether on Instagram and TikTok.)“I didn’t know how to be there,” says Brown. “I was stranded in a house with a bunch of yucky boys. And Tyler and I were both hurting really bad.“But instead of communicating, Brown says Cameron would often go “days” without speaking to her. “There was nothing romantic about that time,” she says. “We didn’t even kiss! And it was really confusing because I told him I still had feelings for him and he rejected me.“Ultimately, when Brown was able to travel safelyshe left, and says she hasn’t spoken to Cameron since.“I was embarrassed about it for a while, but I learned so much,” says Brown, who has beenhappily datingAdam Woolardfor a year. “It wouldn’t have worked with Tyler. Yes, there was chemistry and we had fun together, but I don’t know if I had what he wants in a person or if he had what I wanted.“Ultimately, “things might not turn out the way you expected, but I try to learn from every moment,” Brown says. “I don’t wish ill on anybody. I’ve been through growing pains. But I’m happy. And I’m in a really good place.“God Bless This Mess: Learning to Live and Love Through Life’s Best (and Worst) Momentshits bookshelves on Tuesday.
Hannah Brown.Photo: Lauren Alexandra
Hannah Browndidn’t find her happy ending on her season ofThe Bachelorettein 2019, but for a moment, it appeared she would rekindle a relationship with fan favorite and runner-upTyler Cameron.“I was really hoping that we would start dating again,” Brown, whosplit from her pick Jed Wyattbefore the finale aired, tells PEOPLE in this week’s issue. “I thought I’d made a mistake. I had feelings for Tyler. And I wanted to make things work.“But as the reality star, 27, details in her new memoirGod Bless This Mess, available Tuesday, things did not go as she had hoped.For more from Hannah Brown, pick up the latest issue of PEOPLE, on newsstands Friday, or subscribehere.Hannah and Tyler.After Brownpublicly asked Cameron outduring her season’sAfter the Final Rosespecial (sending fans into a tizzy!), the former couplespent time togetherin her Los Angeles home in early August 2019.“We had really intimate conversations about planning trips and things,” says Brown. “I wanted it to work and to know that everything had happened for a reason. But maybe there was some miscommunication of what that meant.“Tyler Cameron, Hannah Brown.Mark Bourdillon/ ABCTyler Cameron and Hannah Brown on The Bachelorette finale.Miscommunication or not, two days after their night together,photos of Cameronwith supermodelGigi Hadidemerged. “I was reallycaught off-guard,” Brown says. “I knew we were not together or openly dating, but just from the conversations we’d had, it was so shocking — and so public.“Continues Brown: “I felt like I had to be strong andpretend it didn’t bother mewhen it did. I was already on the ground [following her breakup with Wyatt] and this was another kick. I was deeply hurt. I said to Tyler, ‘I’d dateGigi Hadidtoo if I could, I get it.’ But it was not the way I wish it was handled.“In the months following, “wedidn’t talk,” says Brown. “I was upset with him.“Hannah Brown’s “God Bless This Mess”.But then, when Brown learned that Cameron’s beloved mother Andreahad been hospitalizedin February 2020, she reached out.“He told me he had been thinking about me and he apologized for how everything went down,” says Brown. “The next day my brotherhad an overdose. We bonded over each other’strauma.“Tragically, Cameron’s motherdiedat the end of February (Brown’s brothersurvived). Brownwent to visit Cameron in Floridadays before the COVID-19 lockdown began and suddenly found herself strandedwith her ex and his friends. (The groupdocumented much of their timetogether on Instagram and TikTok.)“I didn’t know how to be there,” says Brown. “I was stranded in a house with a bunch of yucky boys. And Tyler and I were both hurting really bad.“But instead of communicating, Brown says Cameron would often go “days” without speaking to her. “There was nothing romantic about that time,” she says. “We didn’t even kiss! And it was really confusing because I told him I still had feelings for him and he rejected me.“Ultimately, when Brown was able to travel safelyshe left, and says she hasn’t spoken to Cameron since.“I was embarrassed about it for a while, but I learned so much,” says Brown, who has beenhappily datingAdam Woolardfor a year. “It wouldn’t have worked with Tyler. Yes, there was chemistry and we had fun together, but I don’t know if I had what he wants in a person or if he had what I wanted.“Ultimately, “things might not turn out the way you expected, but I try to learn from every moment,” Brown says. “I don’t wish ill on anybody. I’ve been through growing pains. But I’m happy. And I’m in a really good place.“God Bless This Mess: Learning to Live and Love Through Life’s Best (and Worst) Momentshits bookshelves on Tuesday.
Hannah Browndidn’t find her happy ending on her season ofThe Bachelorettein 2019, but for a moment, it appeared she would rekindle a relationship with fan favorite and runner-upTyler Cameron.
“I was really hoping that we would start dating again,” Brown, whosplit from her pick Jed Wyattbefore the finale aired, tells PEOPLE in this week’s issue. “I thought I’d made a mistake. I had feelings for Tyler. And I wanted to make things work.”
But as the reality star, 27, details in her new memoirGod Bless This Mess, available Tuesday, things did not go as she had hoped.
For more from Hannah Brown, pick up the latest issue of PEOPLE, on newsstands Friday, or subscribehere.
Hannah and Tyler.
After Brownpublicly asked Cameron outduring her season’sAfter the Final Rosespecial (sending fans into a tizzy!), the former couplespent time togetherin her Los Angeles home in early August 2019.
“We had really intimate conversations about planning trips and things,” says Brown. “I wanted it to work and to know that everything had happened for a reason. But maybe there was some miscommunication of what that meant.”
Tyler Cameron, Hannah Brown.Mark Bourdillon/ ABC
Tyler Cameron and Hannah Brown on The Bachelorette finale.
Miscommunication or not, two days after their night together,photos of Cameronwith supermodelGigi Hadidemerged. “I was reallycaught off-guard,” Brown says. “I knew we were not together or openly dating, but just from the conversations we’d had, it was so shocking — and so public.”
Continues Brown: “I felt like I had to be strong andpretend it didn’t bother mewhen it did. I was already on the ground [following her breakup with Wyatt] and this was another kick. I was deeply hurt. I said to Tyler, ‘I’d dateGigi Hadidtoo if I could, I get it.’ But it was not the way I wish it was handled.”
In the months following, “wedidn’t talk,” says Brown. “I was upset with him.”
Hannah Brown’s “God Bless This Mess”.
But then, when Brown learned that Cameron’s beloved mother Andreahad been hospitalizedin February 2020, she reached out.
“He told me he had been thinking about me and he apologized for how everything went down,” says Brown. “The next day my brotherhad an overdose. We bonded over each other’strauma.”
Tragically, Cameron’s motherdiedat the end of February (Brown’s brothersurvived). Brownwent to visit Cameron in Floridadays before the COVID-19 lockdown began and suddenly found herself strandedwith her ex and his friends. (The groupdocumented much of their timetogether on Instagram and TikTok.)“I didn’t know how to be there,” says Brown. “I was stranded in a house with a bunch of yucky boys. And Tyler and I were both hurting really bad.”
But instead of communicating, Brown says Cameron would often go “days” without speaking to her. “There was nothing romantic about that time,” she says. “We didn’t even kiss! And it was really confusing because I told him I still had feelings for him and he rejected me.”
Ultimately, when Brown was able to travel safelyshe left, and says she hasn’t spoken to Cameron since.
“I was embarrassed about it for a while, but I learned so much,” says Brown, who has beenhappily datingAdam Woolardfor a year. “It wouldn’t have worked with Tyler. Yes, there was chemistry and we had fun together, but I don’t know if I had what he wants in a person or if he had what I wanted.”
Ultimately, “things might not turn out the way you expected, but I try to learn from every moment,” Brown says. “I don’t wish ill on anybody. I’ve been through growing pains. But I’m happy. And I’m in a really good place.”
God Bless This Mess: Learning to Live and Love Through Life’s Best (and Worst) Momentshits bookshelves on Tuesday.
source: people.com
