Ryan Sutteris “doing ok” as he manages his Lyme disease, but he’s having trouble figuring out how to support the people around him who are dealing with their own struggles.
TheBachelorettewinner, 46, said he’s felt uncomfortable with the fact that he’s currently doing well.
“It’s been kind of a tough few weeks. Not for me personally. In fact, I’m doing ok and it’s kind of bugging me?” Sutterwrote on Instagram.
“All around me friends, family and colleagues have come into moments of adversity and are struggling,” he continued. “It’s been easy for me lately to justify personal pain and to somehow work towards finding value in my own suffering but I can’t manage the same peace with the anguish and sorrow of others? I feel powerless against it? I want to be there but don’t know where there is?”
Sutter said that to manage these feelings, he’s sticking to the activities that make him feel good, like getting outdoors.
“I focus on being grateful — for everything. And I go somewhere that makes me feel small and I breath[sic] and I come to the realization that from moment to moment life is simple and that if I can just stay in the moment, I can exist in a simple state of readiness — for myself and for others,” he said.
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But there’s no direct treatment for his illnesses, andTrista said last monththat Ryan has “his up days and down days,” and that she’s struggling withseeing him in pain.
“It’s been hard, to see him struggle, because he is such a strong human in general,” Trista said. “But he doesn’t share that with everyone. So it’s just hard to see the person you love most in the world feeling like crap.”
“It’s been hard,” she continued. “And not because I want any attention on me, [but] because I want him to be better, I want him to wake up feeling great, I want him to be able to spend time with our family and make memories, and when you don’t feel good, it just takes away from life. I’m not doing great.”
source: people.com
