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Oscar De La Hoyais opening up about why he letTravis Barkerraise his daughterAtiana.While appearing on Allison Kugel’sAllison Interviewspodcast on Thursday, the former professional boxer, 50, revealed the real reason why he let ex Shanna Moakler, 48, and Barker, 47, raise his now 24-year-old daughter.“I basically ran away,” De La Hoya admitted. “I was scared. I was fearful.““I did try to be a father full-time for a few years, and it was beautiful,” he continued. “It was amazing to raise a little girl, but there came a point where you say to yourself, ‘Wait a minute. You’re not worthy of this.'“Never miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE’s free daily newsletterto stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from juicy celebrity news to compelling human interest stories.“You try to convince yourself that you are not worthy of this; that love is not possible in your life, because of what I lived through, not receiving that love when I was a kid. My father never told me, ‘I love you.'““My mother never told me she loved me. She never really gave me a hug. When I would cry, she would start hitting me. That is how bad it was,” he added.Later in the episode, he revealed that he felt lost after life started spiraling. “All you want to do is drink and do drugs and escape. Luckily for me, when I was boxing, all the way to the end, it kept me in line.“As the episode continued, De La Hoya said that as a father, “I was always there, but not there, you know? It wasn’t your typical relationship with the father and the mother there 24/7. It wasn’t like that, but obviously, she is my daughter and I love her.““You have to check in and you worry. Even though I was apart, I felt like I was always close, but I didn’t feel like I was worthy enough to do the job.“Earlier this month,De La Hoya admitted in an interviewwithEntertainment Tonightthat he was “grateful” for Barker acting as a “father figure” to Atiana. “Look, I didn’t raise my kids, you know? Their moms did. And I have to give credit where credit is due,” he said.“I’m grateful that Barker was there, you know, as a father figure for my daughter,” he continued. “I have to be grateful thatShannawas a mother to Atiana, and just know my place, basically, you know? My place — I’m obviously a father, and I’m proud of it.”He added, “But, again, I’m grateful for what they’ve done, especially with Barker. He’s obviously stepped up to the plate.“De La Hoya welcomed Atiana with Moakler in 1999, a year before the couple split. Moakler then went on to marry Barker in 2004, who raised Atiana from when she was 5. The pair is also parents to son Landon, 19, and daughter Alabama, 17.The rocker, who marriedKourtney Kardashianlast year, is also step-dad to her kids with exScott Disick— sons Mason, 13, and Reign, 8, and daughter Penelope, 11, and has another little one on the way with the Lemme founder.
Oscar De La Hoyais opening up about why he letTravis Barkerraise his daughterAtiana.
While appearing on Allison Kugel’sAllison Interviewspodcast on Thursday, the former professional boxer, 50, revealed the real reason why he let ex Shanna Moakler, 48, and Barker, 47, raise his now 24-year-old daughter.
“I basically ran away,” De La Hoya admitted. “I was scared. I was fearful.”
“I did try to be a father full-time for a few years, and it was beautiful,” he continued. “It was amazing to raise a little girl, but there came a point where you say to yourself, ‘Wait a minute. You’re not worthy of this.'”
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“You try to convince yourself that you are not worthy of this; that love is not possible in your life, because of what I lived through, not receiving that love when I was a kid. My father never told me, ‘I love you.'”
“My mother never told me she loved me. She never really gave me a hug. When I would cry, she would start hitting me. That is how bad it was,” he added.
Later in the episode, he revealed that he felt lost after life started spiraling. “All you want to do is drink and do drugs and escape. Luckily for me, when I was boxing, all the way to the end, it kept me in line.”
As the episode continued, De La Hoya said that as a father, “I was always there, but not there, you know? It wasn’t your typical relationship with the father and the mother there 24/7. It wasn’t like that, but obviously, she is my daughter and I love her.”
“You have to check in and you worry. Even though I was apart, I felt like I was always close, but I didn’t feel like I was worthy enough to do the job.”
Earlier this month,De La Hoya admitted in an interviewwithEntertainment Tonightthat he was “grateful” for Barker acting as a “father figure” to Atiana. “Look, I didn’t raise my kids, you know? Their moms did. And I have to give credit where credit is due,” he said.
“I’m grateful that Barker was there, you know, as a father figure for my daughter,” he continued. “I have to be grateful thatShannawas a mother to Atiana, and just know my place, basically, you know? My place — I’m obviously a father, and I’m proud of it.”
He added, “But, again, I’m grateful for what they’ve done, especially with Barker. He’s obviously stepped up to the plate.”
De La Hoya welcomed Atiana with Moakler in 1999, a year before the couple split. Moakler then went on to marry Barker in 2004, who raised Atiana from when she was 5. The pair is also parents to son Landon, 19, and daughter Alabama, 17.
The rocker, who marriedKourtney Kardashianlast year, is also step-dad to her kids with exScott Disick— sons Mason, 13, and Reign, 8, and daughter Penelope, 11, and has another little one on the way with the Lemme founder.
source: people.com
