Maria Menounosis known for her positive, can-do attitude, as evidenced on herHeal Squadpodcast, where she and expert guests work to help listeners learn about their health and find solutions.

That said, when it came to beingdiagnosed with pancreatic cancerthis past January, she admits she fell into despair. “When you are met with a [potential] death sentence,” she says, “everything changes.”

“We’re usually really good in crisis,” says Menounos of her and Undergaro, 56, her husband of five years who back in 2017 helped her through being diagnosed and treated for a benign brain tumor. “This one,” she says regarding her recent pancreatic cancer diagnosis, “this one freaked him out. He was really scared.”

Maria Menounos in the hospital.Courtesy Maria Menounos

Courtesy Maria Menounos

She remembers sitting down with her husband and saying “‘If something happens, here are the people I want her around and what I want you to do. You’ll probably have to move back East to be with my dad so that she has him.’ We talked about all of it. We imagined the worst.”

Despite how devastated she was in the moment, Menounos says she stopped short of asking ‘Why me?’ “When my mom was sick and we were giving her safe passage,” she says of mom Litsa, who died of brain cancer in 2021, “my dad would say ‘why us?’ And I’d go ‘Dad, why not us?’ I’m not saying ‘Why me?’ because I know it’s ‘Why everybody?'”

Despite the fears she had, Menounos leaned on her practice of meditation and all she’d gleaned from her work with Heal Squad to find the light. After her surgery in February and healing these past few months, she’s added a new practice. “I talk to my pancreas every day, I talk to all of my body organs and say ‘I really love you. Thank you for handling everything.'”

Courtesy Maria Menounos

Courtesy Maria Menounos

“I talk to her all the time,” she says of sending voice recordings that her surrogate plays near her belly. “She kicks and moves around like crazy every time. I’m looking forward to that whole other chapter. I’m excited.”

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source: people.com